for habit will encroach.
I knew it was a possibility, I knew I should have listened to that little voice in my head and the wise advice from my Chiropractor but lingering pain sometimes makes you become a little desperate and willing to let your guard down and try anything like believing those ads on TV. I think about those old movies where the fast talking salesmen was standing on an elaborate stage in the middle of a huge crowd of people wearing dusty beautiful dresses and Western garb, they were selling “Snake Oil” and promises. We now know it was probably alcohol or water laced with something, cocaine comes to mind. There have always been desperate people through history willing to believe anything.
If you have not read about my perceived “miracle pill” story here is the LINK I also included the story of how it did not work as I had hoped here. Thinking that was the end of this desperate failed act and while getting used to the pain again then moving on with my life, I thought I had put all this behind me. I was wrong.
I have just returned from the eye doctor. I have been having issues with my eyes since that month of no pain. While taking that “miracle pill” I had headaches with blurry vision but not that familiar pain in my arms legs and chest (I have to admit that was nice) and I ignored the warning signs because I was hoping the headaches and blurry vision would go away. Having pain and then having no pain makes you believe things that may not necessarily be true or good for you. I am sure the “Snake Oil” customers believed that water would work too if they just continued to take it.
This last couple of months I found that the subtitles on the bottom of those foreign movies I love to watch/read on Netflix were so blurry for me that I was no longer able to understand them. Now this was OK with My Hero as he never believed you should have to read a movie. I was fine with this for a while and chalked it up to just being over tired. Soon the regular TV shows seemed to blur and I was trying to squint and strain my eyes to focus resulting in those same headaches all over again I finally decided I needed to get in and get checked out. I was hoping that little voice in my head telling me it was all because of that “miracle pill” was wrong. I had an eye exam that cost $95 in August of 2012, I started that $56 bottle of “miracle pill” in October of 2012 that lasted only one month, resulting in my taking those pills back to my doctor with half of them left. It is now February of 2013 and am paying $55 for another eye exam. This was getting expensive.
I have worn reading glasses for about seven years now while using the computer and reading. I was so glad I had that eye exam right before starting that “miracle pill” so my doctor had a reference point. I sat in her chair, marvelling at the fact that she looked like she was still attending high school, you know you are getting old when that happens. Well she started testing by shining bright lights in my eyes, directing me to look straight ahead, my head was being held up by a contraption, and she had me reading charts which I could not make out, exactly like those subtitles on Net Flix. All this time I was explaining about that “miracle pill” the blurry vision side effect listed on the drug insert and the symptoms I was experiencing now. I remember the words that finally came “Yes there is a change” I was afraid to listen to the rest of that sentence but she continued. “Your Focus Muscle (I never even heard of that muscle) has weakened, the “miracle pill” appears to have accelerated the natural aging progression”.
My mind started racing wondering if it would return to normal, I asked and she said no, if anything it would continue to weaken. I was so angry; I only took those pills for one month I can only imagine what would have happened if I was still taking them. I guess I cannot blame the pill I knew there was a possibility, I should have paid more attention to the risks written on the flyer, I assumed the blurry vision thing would not happen to me and would be a minor inconvenience at best after all the Fibro pain was almost completely gone, I blame myself. I should have stopped as soon as I started getting those headaches, I should have known it was not a minor side effect that would eventually go away. I do know this drug works for many people and I am happy for them. All it did for me was reinforcing my belief to stay away from my perceived “miracle pills” as they do not seem to work for me. I have a feeling my ancestors had bought that Snake Oil from those fast talking salesmen.
I am in the process now of deciding between buying Bi focal lens or progressive lens, or just buy a pair of glasses for distance. Since I already have reading glasses this would be the cheapest way to do it. That would be three pairs of glasses if I carry my sunglasses. I told the “high school” Doctor that I am going to need a bigger purse, she laughed, we both laughed. Laughter is good. I have some decisions to make.
Lyrica appears to work well for other Fibro sufferers and I am extremely happy for all of those lucky people, I guess I am not one of them. I knew going in that temporary slight side effects were possible from the insert from the pharmacist but I guess my perception was it could not possibly happen to me but it did. Sometimes you should just listen to that little voice.
I just wanted others to know. Pay attention to those inserts and listen to that little voice in your head. I am doing well I am happy and will keep fighting this Fibro, it will not win. When I get those new glasses My Hero will fall asleep from boredom while watching/reading those subtitles on the bottom of those movies leaving me alone to read them while listening to the soothing sound of his snoring. I can’t wait.
I am off to the bush; this is my one proven “Miracle Pill” that always seems to work for me. I have found that there is nothing that seems impossible while surrounded by Mother Nature and her incredible gifts.